My heart is still heavy with grief. I'm starting this year very cautiously. I'm still trying to figure out how to go on with life without Chris. I'm scared, I'm worried about what will happen to me and I want Chris back so much it physically hurts. I drink too much, I worry too much and I feel so alone even if my family is here and have been wonderful about helping me. I feel like this is a journey I have to go alone on. Chris would tell me to move on but it's impossible to "move on". It's a hurt I feel like it never leaves. So where and what do I do now?
